Something On my Mind..

GoodBye..

He awoke from slumber only to find,

His soul drifting away.. Into the blue..

If there was anyone that could save him,

It certainly was you..

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But as seasons come and seasons go,

One must learn to live and let live..

Moving on and leaving it behind,

For thats all he could ever give..

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Here he lies, under the stars,

Wishing everything would be alright..

But as much he could ever wish for long,

Going through this nightmare everynight..

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Even though at times they meet,

They could always see eye to eye..

But now at this very moment,

Its time to say.. Goodbye..

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11.48am,29thJune2008,

Ivan.K

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It truly has been a long time since I wrote a poem.. But its something which come and goes within me. Even still I hope you enjoy it =)

My way...

And now, the end is near;
And so I face the final curtain.
My friend, Ill say it clear,
Ill state my case, of which Im certain.

Ive lived a life thats full.
Ive traveled each and evry highway;
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Regrets, Ive had a few;
But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption.

I planned each charted course;
Each careful step along the byway,
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Yes, there were times,
Im sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.

Ive loved, Ive laughed and cried.
Ive had my fill; my share of losing.
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.
To think I did all that;
And may I say - not in a shy way,
No, oh no not me,I did it my way.

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows
And did it my way!

*Somehow it relates 100% to how I feel now..*

Boring day..

After the trip.. Life continues like normal.. Today I woke up around 6 something in the morning and just felt like going out and jog.. So I did.. Felt so depressed inside till I had to exercise it all out of me.. Came back from jogging, ate a simple lunch and fell asleep till 2 something.

Went out again at 3 something to Gasing Hill for junggle trekking.. Now that was a workout.. Thank goodness as I came out it started to rain.. I guess i'll be doing this till term 3 begins? Its great exercise? Well only God knows..

Really hating this anxiety in me.. I have to change this part of me.. Haih.. At least now I know im not the only one going thru this.. So far I can only share this with 2 people, 1 is not here and kinda unreachable.. The other seems to be in a deeper depression then me so.. Aww well.. Live and let live..

Thats all for today I guess..
Cheers~
Ivan.K

Pangkor~~!!!

Finally...... IM BACKKKKK!!!! xD

Well.. Though Im back.. I really don't know what to blog since a lot of things happened..

So... Lets get started shall we? Ahahaha~

Day 1, 24th June

Okay.. Its 7am and im awake... Besides not sleeping the whole night, I forgotten to pack a lot of things.. All the "gan-cheongness" made me so nervous that I almost forgot to pack all my stuff like tooth brush,tooth paste, plates, cutlaries and shampoo. But heck lucky I was fast and i manage to packed it afterall. So I left my house around 8 smth cuz i needed to pick up Byron and Clement in college cuz my dad was sending us to pudu raya, we took the bus T.T, so we reached there ard 9 smth..

At the station we just lingered around till our bus came, so we went eat our branch 1st.. We had a simple meal and went off to the bus. The ride was pretty boring but thank god I had my head phones... Ahhhh Music is salvation from boredome.. Worst thing is, byron and clement had neither and was kinda forced to "enjoy" the whole ride? Ahahaha, but halfway the ride I noticed I had another pair of headphones so I gave clement mine. Well, Nokia rules? Ahahah..

The ride was okok la.. but guess what? Our bus BROKE DOWN in Ipoh, leaving us waiting along side the road for a really long time.. However thank god there was another bus coming and we hitched a ride to Lumut. What can i say? Me and Clement had "VIP" front row seats.. Lol.. As we finally reached Lumut.. Hmmm.. Total time travelled? 10.30am~4.30pm? Long huh? Really tiring.. Btw thats only to the Lumut bus terminal. Another 1/2 hour to reach the hotel. Swiss Garden Golf and Spa and blablabla.. Man the road to get there is really Really REALLY ulu sia.. If i had to drive there 101% I will get lost..

So as we finally reached the "hotel", we learned that the hotel and the apartment are like so far appart.. We need to call the shuttle service everytime we wanted to get to either.. Really troublesome.. So finally the room.. It was nice, we had 2 rooms and a livingroom and a kitchen..

One thing bugged me though.. Flies? Yeah!!!! FLIES everywhere ARGH!!! Hated that the most..

We cooked and ate and settled down.. We didnt do much the first day, but me,byron and clement went for a ride to town and along the way saw fire flies, well those kinda flies i dont really mind lol.. After the trip we had a drinking session, and i certainly learned my lesson... Don't Ever Underestimate VODKA!!! Aww man.. I got drunk by vodka... Omg... And thats it for me.. GG.com.. And so my night ended there...

Day 2, 25th June

Awoke.. Tired... *Yawn*.... Ahaha, the next day has begun.. We had breakfast as we cooked and started packing for our trip to Pangkor as Lumut was as dead as dead can be, lol?

*Note to readers*
"Really lazy to type evreything in detail cuz I just got back so, instead here are some pictures"

Back to the story... So we left the room by 12 something and left for the Lumut Jetty to Pangkor.. Along the way, we planned where we were gonna stay and so-on.. So pictures? Here ya go.. xD

Me and Goon Ee at the Jetty waiting. Handphones? =)

Me and Diana, who's the one behind? Potong steam!!

All of us during the ferry ride to Pangkor! =)

My turn to take the photo! xD

So thats our ride to Pangkor, it was really hot at first.. But when the boat started moving.. Gosh.. The wind in our hair.. Simply amazing!!

As we reached Pangkor, we took a van to a nice spot to hang out and find a place to stay.. So we ended up in this place called "something nipah" Lol sorry la, bad memory ahahah.. Best thing is, the beach was just opposite the hotel and it was soooooooo beautiful. Well after that? What else? Time to hit the beach and have FUN xD

The was was great as the sun was bright.. Loved the waves but there was more.. We went snorkling instead.. There was an Island near the beach which we went to snorkle. I think we could have swim there but we were not that crazy yet so we took a boat there. Crazy driver as we almost fell in a few times but was fun la ahahah.. So here is our island~~

Wonderfull isn't it? Even Clement thinks so.. xD

Watching my step.. Gosh dangerous.. =x

Diana and Sonia chilling and posing xD

Cole!!! You ok a not? Ahaha Left to right, Goon Ee ~ Byron ~ Me >.<
Me, Sonia and Diana =)

Jacky and Diana, Matching shirts? Ahaha

After snorkling, we just hanged around the island until the person picked us up. Along the way we just sang songs.. What kind of songs? Kindergarden and Country songs ahaha.. With that we all went back to the main Island of Pangkor and continued playing until the sunset.. Here are a few more pictures.. =)

Victim 1, Jacky

Victim 2, Me.. T.T

Beautufil Sunset isn't it?

That is the end for our beach fun.. We then washed up and prepared for dinner and we had another drinking session but this time.. I was prepared and didn't drink much.. So that about it for day 2.. =)

Day 3, 26th June

So... Yawn.... *BING BANG BOOM* Man its so noisy outside our room... What was it? It was Cole's cousins.. Thats right, MONKEYS!!!! They sorta trashed the table outside our room and like made a mess out of it and definately woke me up.. I went to stare at the monkey and it stares back.. Anyhoo I couldn't careless so I went back in, then jackie told me goon ee was out alone so I went out to find her..

Managed to find her on the beach, sitting on the swing.. Swinging~ I just teman her until the others arrived.. Here are more pictured we took there, enjoy~ =) Sand art? Lol..
Foot prints picture?
Omg Cole?!! xD

Cole why are you shorter than Goon ee? Macho hunks? Ahaha xD

Ok... I feel soooo short.. =x

After all that, we all packed and got back to mainland.. We all boarded our transportation and left our own ways.. This is our Pangkor trip.. The End~

Exams are all Over

Well finally all the exams are over.. Freaking relieved, now... 14 days of fun in the sun? Nah dont think so.. Even though the exams are over I still got this feeling like i was missing something and actually, i was..

The twist, seems like a lot of people knows about it.. But heck.. Its sort of over now, the twist I mean. What comes after that? Only God knows.. Ahaha... It just seems like yesterday I actually told her what i wasnt suppose too... WAIT it was yesterday ahahhaha..

Kinda like a lot of weight is off my shoulders but still... Maybe a lil bit more..

About yesterday....

Ahaha yesterday I went out to KLCC with Collie,Elena and Jonathan. It was so weird when I saw Collie wearing green... OMG I was wearing that too.. What a copy cat.. So we went ahead and waited for the train. Once we bought the ticket and sat down.. "Ivan, I left my phone in your car..." SWT she actually left her phone in my car and we had to go and quickly get it.. And guess what? We missed the train after that... T.T So we waited for the next one...

But i guess it wasnt all that bad as Elena and Jonathan were in the next train, coincidence? Lolz
As we got off at KL Central, I officially meet Elena and Jonathan for the first time. Jonathan so reminded me of Ethan.. From the way they talk, tone and voice almost 99.99% Ethan.. And Elena? Ahaha, like Collie said. Really funny and a joker.

So we went to KLCC to shop for her present and go eat and so-on... Well to be honest there wasnt much you can do in KLCC but it was fun walking up and down, left and right, and so-on.. So in the end, we decided to go back to Sunway Pyramid to eat dinner. There we ate BBQ Plaza, we ordered the Deluxe Family Set. There were 4 of us... But there was only 3 bowls of rice? Swt.. So we ordered 1 more.. But guess what? We "Ka-fan" 5 more bowls.. Wow.. 6 bowls in total??? Ahaha we really can eat.

After the wonderful meal, we went to the arcade.. Only thing we wanted to do there is.. Para Para Paradise 2? Ahahaha well there was already these 2 guys there.. Really selfish if u asked me, they played like 3~4 rounds in a row? While there were a lot of us waiting.. Worst thing is.. They were good.. Lol.. So how would you feel if u watched all the "pro" people played first then you? Quite like potong steam right? Even so we played and it was FUN. Really enjoyed my self.

We went back afterwards, I sent back Elena and John, then Collie...

Did it just end there? Nope.. =)
Will write about that in the next one xD

Cheers~
Ivan.K

Food Science DOWN!!!

Day 1 of Exams...

Miss Nancy.... YOU MADE ME OVERSTUDY!!!!!!!
Gosh... I never knew the questions were so... heh... easy? But anyway enough of that tomorrow is my "most favourite" Math.... Ahhh numbers...

Hopefully i can pass la... =x

My Hair~~~!!!

Omg.... Today I finally cut my hair~~!!!!!! ANd it looks So WEIRD!!!

I never really thought they would cut it till it was so short.....

Omg.....

Apart from that, the exams are coming and I still have time to blog? Hoho Time To Go Back And STUDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY xD

Cheers~~!

Ivan.K

Noticing..

Sometimes all it takes is a small glance... Stop what you are doing and just look at the people around you..

I've come to know the people around me better just by really understanding them.. Read their blogs and so-on. And I can't stop thinking... What a blessing they have become to me, it feels like I have met them only yesterday and we're already the best of friends.. Really made a diffrence in my life.. I truly am grateful for these people I have around me.. So I pray that they will stick by my side for as long as time doesn't end..

Knowing that I'm not the only one who is going through the ups and downs.. =)

Sigh..

Past few weeks have been terrible, plenty of things running thru my head everyday. Sometimes its unbearable but somehow.. I can "tahan", tolerate.

I don't really know what going on inside me anymore.. I sometimes dont understand myself.. I've been recently noticing my this friend a lot.. Seriously, its not something I could ignore..

The person which everyone knows I like.. Seems so possible at first, but now.. Not so possible afterall.. Or maybe even impossible.. We are very diffrent, like we're from two diffrent worlds. Where when she studies, I go out clubbing. When I play basketball, she reads a book. See the diffrence?.. People are telling me to go for it and some telling me to let it go.. I used to see rainbow and butterflies when ever i see her, but not anymore.. Could this mean it never was meant to be?..

Now here's the twist.. I think deep inside my heart.. There was someone always there but I never really noticed her until past few weeks ago.. I really don't know if its only me or not.. Love truly is blind..

A new start, A new beginning..

Well its almost been a year since i last bloged.. Really sad isn't it?

Now Im In college, life couldnt be any better.. Yet a lot of the past still bothering me.. I have changed a lot since the last time I bloged.. Somesay more mature, somesay more childish. Heck.. I don't really bother..

So after all this time.. Lets Get Started..

Now Im in Taylors School of Hospitality and Tourism, taking up diploma in Hospitality management. Currently in batch Dh29 Group 2.

I was the group leader for group 2 during the first term * In the 2nd term now *, kinda think of it.. I was suddenly the leader.. Nobody voted it just suddenly happened =x There I got to knew my new "family". First there was Bester, haha when I first saw him at Orientation, I could have swore he was a 13 year old kid which goes to college.. Girls call him super cute, well who doesnt? He's a nice guy but sometimes a lil too quiet.. Ahaha =)

Then there was Kit Yee my second in command of our group, moment I met her, she so reminds me of my old classmate Yong Mei. She's caring, understanding but most of all ready to sacrifice a lot for our group like our recent Moral project where we had made a short film based on HIV. Someone who you can really trust and talk too =)

Moving on would be Racheal Ooi, ahhh she's a very unique character.. At first, I thought she was the "in" girl. You know?... Like popular and stuff. She sorta loves to go to the gym, loves working out I guess. Well guess what? I was wrong. She's actually really a good friend to have. Very easy to talk to, and fun to laugh with. xD

Hsu Ann!!!! Haha, now this is someone who taught me leadership in a way.. Easy to talk too, and very supoportive. If it wasn't for her... Hmmm.. Seriously.. I think most of my projects would have never been completed.

Queen of L'Oreal Star Search Malaysia 2008, *drum roll*~~~~~~~ Non other than Wei Yen!! Now, want to talk about party. She's the girl to talk too. Ahahaha she just wild and fun to be with.

Next up would be Tania, our tall!!! Basketball girl. I played with her basketball and lost T.T Well maybe I could win her one day la. Ahahaha..

Now back to the guys, Hassan and Caleb. Hassan is from Maldives and Caleb is from Kenya. These two guys really can't stop making me laugh. Ahahaha, well maybe they just need to adjust to malaysia a lil more. There isn't a day, I wouldn't laugh when they are around.

Who am I missing ah... Ahh yes, Sabrina aka Sabby, Esther, Adeline and Wen Hwei~!!! They're always together in a group. Everyone of them is unique in their own way but share 1 thing in common.... Kinda quiet.. = x However they're still one of my closest friends in my group.

Thats about it for my group~